I used to miss my cousins and parents a lot. Then, once I had my son, my life became hectic. Till then, I used to get time for my hobbies. Now, my main concentration is my toddler kid. Its while taking care of him I feel that if it had been back home! and then I realize that this place is my home now, and I should think of it. But, still, some where, there is a feeling that I miss many things.
I miss the summers, the mangoes, the flowers that we adorn in our hair, the busy roads, the mismanaged traffic in small towns, road side fruit stalls and chat bhandars, Nair's tea shop in Chennai, many many things. Work place also is different. One thing I really realized is that I can no longer slog like I used to do earlier. I cannot work day and night to release the applications, like I did earlier. I dont want to.
Kids enjoy a lot in India, with Grandparents, here they miss them and are forced to go to school or daycare at early age. But, the kids here are again self reliant and learn to do all the things on their own. Thats not seen there.
I want to go back, but, to get a life that is full of all the facilities here, with all the benefits of motherland, its tough. Are we gaining or losing? The article shows my current mind set, confused about different aspects and not clear on what to do.
